So in the last 24 hours...I've had 2 different people comment on me being miserable...with two completely different stances. Do I enjoy being miserable? Or is it that I'm not content with being miserable that I make my mind do all this idea-dancing...which in turn makes me more miserable? Personally, I'd like to think it's the latter. (Now that I think about it, I don't think I ever said I was miserable...unhappy (yes), depressed (yes), angry(yes)...miserable...i don't think so.) I don't think I enjoy being miserable...why would I put my mind through all of this if I enjoyed being miserable?
With those two comments on being miserable...it makes me think about the short term plan. Is it smarter to try and cover up the unhappiness? Like create distractions, keep myself busy, try and make more friends...and make this life, the one I'm currently living, better. Or should I be trying to make myself more "miserable" so that I make decisions quicker? More of a survival stance....you're going to run faster if you were being chased...rather than just running for fun. Or should I go a third route...not change anything...make it my "control," just to be sure that I know for certain what makes me unhappy or that I'm still unhappy? Right now, I'm so lost...they all sound like a good idea.
My mind made lots of questions today....not a lot of answers. My manager and my co-worker/friend/2-month life partner were very helpful with suggestions...but more suggestions = more things to think about. Lots of questions, not a lot of answers.
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