After the Break

I had to take a break from blogging....somewhere in between working, online chatting, and ranting I developed Tendinitis. I know...it's frickin' lame. But in a way, I guess it was a blessing. Sometimes you just need to put things down and walk away...and the tendinitis did just that. Instead of ranting about my unhappiness in Camarillo or thinking about my next life move, I was forced to focus on my pain and trying to make it better. Granted, I did spend a while thinking about how lame it was that I'm 23 and I have ergo problems already...but it got me to take a step away from my problems for a while.

In this interim period I have gone to an MBA info session, attended a law school class on criminal procedure, and gone out with a couple of guys to break up the monotony of going to work, working out, and contemplating my direction in life.

(I also had several emotional breakdowns the week before Ryan moved out, but I'm going to try erase that part. That week involved a lot of crying and powdered donnettes. At least the donnettes were good. One of my life mottos is that "Bad and painful memories are 10x stronger that the good ones to keep you from making the same mistake twice." So...what did I learn from this experience...1.) screen your roommates. 2.)make sure your room has a lock on it. 3.)your friends are a reflection of you. 4.)if you're thinking about calling the cops...you probably should. 5.) some people are just horrible people and 6.) I'm a lot more evil that I thought I was)

I know this is pathetic on my part, but attention from the opposite sex really helped my outlook. I feel like I approach the day's with a brighter aura. I feel like I'm genuinely smiling...even though nothing has really changed other than Ryan moving out. I guess I really did not like that guy at all.