Gotta Start Somewhere

Welcome to my new blog. After all that has happened to me in the past year, I felt like my xanga (http://milknwookies.xanga.com/) was inappropriate. I'm not the same person I was a year ago...not even close. The person I was a year ago...the one who walked across the stage in Zellerbach to receive my diploma: bright-eyed/bushy tailed, hopeful, excited to join the work force, excited to apply everything that was learned in labs and in lecture, excited to make a difference in the world, and most of all excited to finally be "out the door"...that person would be disgusted with the person I've become. I am disgusted with the person I've become.

I'm not sure how I got to where I am now, but I know I need to find a map and get out fast. I've got less than a year to put myself back together...find a direction...find motivation...and hopefully by finding those two things I will also come across happiness. This is my attempt to organize my thoughts, identify my fears and weakness, and hopefully put myself back together stronger than I was before. I believe all things happen for a reason...I'm stuck here for a reason...I just wish I knew what that reason was.